Tomorrow

Tomorrow's the day! After almost 8 weeks apart, Abram and I get to spend the weekend together :) Needless to say, I'm kinda stoked. Last time I flew out there this was my favorite part of the flight:

(not my picture)

I got lucky enough to see both sunset and sunrise over LA on either end of the trip and it was AMAZING! I love planes and airports and just the whole experience. So excited. 

The other thing I'm sooooo looking forward to (besides dancing, cooking, kissing, and generally lounging with my man) is the weather!! It will be so great to get away from the gross snow of Utah and bask in some of this for the weekend: 

P.S. Brittany posted some more gorgeous pictures!! If it's any incentive to check them out, I'm wearing a freaking crown of pine branches. She's so cool. No two fish are alike is where you'll find her :)

On Vulnerability

Last night one of my best friends sent me a 4 page text telling me she was worried she was starting to like this new guy in her life too much. Her last relationship was with a manipulative...pig (which is the understatement of the century) so she has been understandably wary of trusting someone with her heart again. I didn't really think too much before replying, just let the words come out and was surprised to find I had some pretty profound wisdom to share: "The best thing I can tell you is that it is always worth it to love, to give your heart fully, especially because there's a chance it'll get broken. That's the only way you're ever going to learn to trust someone again."

I've reread that several times over the last day and the more I think about it, the more it makes sense to me. As someone who's been through her fair share of heartbreak, I can honestly say I don't regret giving my full heart every time. Why should getting your heart broken make you afraid to give it again? What if the next person who comes into your life is the one that is meant to stay but you don't trust them enough to give them your full heart, always harboring that small particle of doubt and fear that they will hurt you? I don't want to live my relationships in fear. I want to live them fully and with trust, though I obviously don't want to be naive about it, but I think that's where past heartache comes in; if you learn from the mistakes of past relationships, the next ones should be richer for the experience. This is just me thinking out loud, and I totally understand that other people think differently about this than I do, but there's my 2 cents.

In other news, my friend Brittany from no two fish are alike and I did a really cool photo shoot a couple weeks ago and she posted 2 of the pictures to her blog so you should go check them out (the first one is my favorite)! I love having artistic friends :)

Last, but not least, sorry it's been a while, it hasn't been a super eventful month, just trying to plow through school and figure out summer plans. But, I get to see my man in 3 days (!!!!!!) so....that's exciting :) and slightly distracting. Updates to come! Thanks for stopping by.

Thank You Lord...

...for cookies, Skype, my spirit sisters who always know the right thing to say; for airplanes, cars, and the money to use them; for art that makes me think and question and cry; for love, in all of its forms and expressions; for space heaters and friends who know when to just hold you and be quiet; for a boyfriend who knows how to work hard, cares about what I think, and tells me he misses me; for my endlessly supportive family; for my body that carries me through every day and allows me to express myself in so many creative capacities. And if you're reading this, know that I'm thankful for you too, in more ways than you will every know. And: